Struggles, not new but still tiresome
I have some ancient heart struggles, places where I easily lose heart and
falter. I have a deep desire for the love and respect of those around me
and feel rejection very acutely. A dear friend wrote to me this week and I
wanted to share her words, so true and so timeless:
“I’m afraid it has to be enough that God knows who you are and deeply loves
you. If anyone else comes through for you the way God does, then it is
really Him anyway. If they don’t, then it is for your best somehow. I
trust that.There are no special people who have incredible capacities to
love – only God Himself.”
Coming out of the slump of an awful lot of sickness and related
discouragement, I walked up the path to our neighboring missionaries house
yesterday. My mission: to get Naomi away from all of us sickies for some
much needed play time. I felt ancient and exhausted and it was all I could
do to make it there and back, with Quinn sick and sad on my back.
On the way many, many people stopped to say that they were sorry that I hav=
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been sick. To say, we hope you soon are well. Here people understand
sickness, they understand suffering. For me I am walking a path that they
have walked before and they are excited to share it with me.
For me it’s a reminder that the things that are painful in my life always
have sweet purpose, whether or not I can see what it is. And rather than
running away from pain I can choose to step into it, embrace it, accept it
and see what may be contained there.
you are so powerful in the way that you right ann, dod must have given you the skill to be able to blog all of this to us to tell us just exactly the way everything in life over there in uganda, god bless you guys, be well!!!love you bunches, wish i could give you a huge hug
kiim
Isaiah 26:3. A promise. We continue to pray for you – that you would be victorious, not just “getting by”. I have relayed to my friends that I am amazed by your obedience to God’s call, with other options that were available. Only He knows the true extent of your sacrifice, but others, like me, are becoming more aware. It must be awesome to realize all that God has entrusted to you. I appreciate your blog. God Bless. Karl
hope you get better soon. I know too well about struggles myself… last 6 yrs for me… sometimes, I dont know how I can get out of bed to face another day…