“I have learned to stay in uncomfortable places of unresolved conditions to wait for new possibilities to emerge.” So says Christopher Janney (who creates tech art through use of light, music and special effects), adding: “I believe pushing two seemingly disparate conditions together is what can create new possibilities.”

That same concept is also behind the the sociological term “innovative dissonance” a technique used in the corporate world to bring growth through conflict. And God help me if it’s not true, since our entire term thus far in Bundibugyo has been chock full of unresolved and seemingly disparate conditions. I keep waiting in uncomfortable places!! Problems are abundant, solutions require real innovation. And many times the path towards growth involves soul searching, conflict, and plain old pain.

I fast and I pray. I ask God to search my heart and see what in it needs to change, I seek advice wherever I can, I try to release my own perspective enough to see the perspectives of others. I read 1 Corinthians 13 with our staff and am deeply humbled and convicted my my sheer perseverance towards NOT loving. I keep running up against total depravity (mine and others) which has been overcome by total grace (God’s for us.) Our minds have been transformed and our hearts of stone taken away but we still hurt each other deeply. I am never completely in right yet in all my interactions I carry a deep seed of God’s rightness, truth and my unique gifting to show Him off.

Mired in the unresolved, surrounded by the disparate, I wait for truth to emerge in the form of new possibilities. It’s a very tough place for me. A place where peace feels elusive and where self-protection constantly creeps in. I cling to Him, and cry out for your prayers.

From Jesus is Calling by Sarah Young: (the words written as if spoken by Jesus to us)
“I want to be central in your entire being. When your focus is firmly on Me, My peace displaces fear and worries. They will encircle you seeking entrance, so you must stay alert. Let trust and thankfulness stand guard, turning back fear before it can gain a foothold. There is no fear in my love, which shines on you continually. Sit quietly in my Love-Light while I bless you with radiant peace. Turn your whole being to trusting and loving me.”