Real Midnight and Quinn is vomiting hard.  His diarhea comes quickly enough to beat him to the bathroom.  He is unbelievably sweet in the darkness; all blond curls and soft cheeks and tiredness.  Spirits of sickness  we REFUSE you in Jesus name.

Meanwhile I have fever, sore throat, head and body aches.  David has a virulent staph infection on his face that has a swelling the size of a racquetball and is making him feel flu-ish.  Spirits of sickness we REFUSE you in Jesus name.

But as we wake this morning, we stay committed to doing “the next right thing.”  Fenelon’s book, “Let Go” says it well: ” If there are things in His will which you do not understand, simply tell Him that you are willing to conform to His will in all things.  And then go on in peace.  For we know that peace is the will of God for you in every situation.”

Two days ago I was at the BOTTOM.  But thankfully despite sickness and increasing pressure of time as school draws to a close I now feel at peace.  From Jesus Calling, the words of God to me, to all of us:

“I am pleased with you, my child. Allow yourself to become fully aware of my presence shining upon you.  You don’t have to perform well in order to receive my love.  In fact performance will pull you away from me.    Shift your focus from performance into my radiant presence.  The light of My love shines on you continually, regardless of your feelings or behavior.  Your responsibility is to be receptive to this unconditional love.  Thankfulness and trust are your primary receptors.  Thank me for everything.  Trust in me at all times.  These simple disciplines will keep you open to my loving presence.”

Slowly, slowly, I’m learning.  Trust.  Thankfulness.  Receiving His love.  Basking in the shimmer.  Letting Go.